Currently Listening God He Reigns: Live Worship From Hillsong Church By Hillsong see related

Praise Jesus! My first year of college is almost done!

Well, I am almost so dearly close to finishing my first 2 semesters of higher education. Yahoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think by the grace of God I still might get mostly A's. All I have left is finals. Mom will be coming in a few days and I can pack up all my stuff and go home for the summer. I am so excited about by the way-- I am going to be interning at the River City (San Antonio) House of Prayer. It is going to be so awesome. And I will be working part time as well. But anywho-- I will be coming back to SAGU this next fall but I will be going back home the spring semester. I am going to be taking 18 hours, 2 upper level classes, and two classes will be with Dr. McElhany! EKKKK! And I will be working in the career services office which will be in the midst of transition losing our secretary Leanna and all. But praise Jesus I will do great. In the spring I will come back home and take alot of my basics at the community college. My boyfriend will be done with his tour in Iraq and I want to be at home so I can be with him. And everyone be praying for him--he hasn't gotten leave two times now and he might get it in August so pray that he gets it please!!!!!!!!!!! It would be so greatly appreciated. He needs a break.

On a more serious note, I saw a young man either dead or possibly paralyzed on the street today. I was on  my way home from Waco after staying at Ashley's for a few nights and happened upon an accident. I thought it was only a car accident, but as I went by I realized that a young man who on his stomach was on the groundin between two cars that had stopped in the middle of the road. The cops had just come up to the scene when I passed. I didn't know wheither it was a hit and run, or the people that were stopped had hit him, if it was gang related (since it was in the ghetto kindof). All I saw was a lifeless body shoulders down, his feets facing me. No one was looking at him, they were standing far away from him. The cop and another man were bent down looking at him. I don't know if he was dead or maybe just paraylzed (as a lifegaurd, I know that if someone tells you that they can't move or it hurts to move-you are to stabalize them and hold on until a medic can get there). So maybe that was the case and they didn't know what to do? I hoped that would be the case, but who really knows? I have seen injured people in wreaks before, and have never cried. If anything I want to stop and help if I can. But tonight I cried. My heart broke for God's son. Was he saved? Had he ever met Father? Did he know that there was something more to life than what we know it as? I didn't know what to pray, but I prayed. Tears started streaming down my face, blurring my vision as I was trying to drive. I hurt for this boy.  

God spoke to me. This is what Jesus does for us--this is what the eternal is about. Interceding. I mean I "knew" this, but not really. It's amazing how we can hear something a million times and think we know it until we finally realize what knowing it is. There is something so much deeper in life than circumstances, children, a home, a spouse, a job, a car, money, drama, sex, failure, success, grades, "being the best", payments, clothes, reputation. All these mean nothing in the sceme of things.  Life is spiritual; it's eternal. Life is God. Without Him nothing would exist. We would have nothing to live for and thus nothing to die for. Life would be meaningless. Simply a body that roams around trying to gain acceptance by those around him that never will for they too seek the same pointless thing.  Life is only through Christ. I know this is the so typical--but does it really mean something to you? Or are you numb? Are you numb to the maybe the cliche's, for lack of a better word? Are you? If you are ask God in this very moment to soften your heart. Ask Him to reveal what these sayings really mean. Ask Him to put meaning behind what you say or hear so that you don't do them in vain. There is so much more to life! A spiritual realm that is more real than anything we will ever experience here on earth.      

Currently Listening Lost In Love see related

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The header on my site is a famous quote from one of our founding fathers Patrick Henry. Our American ancestors were seeking freedom from religious persecution from England. Henry was expressing his feelings about his freedom. It came down to one or the other: liberty or death.

Tonight I went to this House of Prayer that my church has been trying to get going for the city of San Antonio. The woman that leads it, Jamie, I have known for some time now. This past Christmas, we got together just to share what God has been doing in our lives and what we desired to do.  It was incredible. God has been working this vision in me for a while--for probably 2 and a half years. And God has been working the same vision in her for sometime too. God is amazing! So this vision entails bringing revival through spontaneous worship and prayer. After hearing about this internship at RCHOP (River City House of Prayer) I had been praying about it. So as Jamie and I were talking she was just like " yeah you need to be here doing this."

So I am on Spring Break and I decided to go to RCHOP tonight. Jamie tried to persuade me to go up and sing for the whole time. I was comfortable quite yet. But we began to pray against abortion, and as we did that, God started to impress this word on my heart.

At my school, they have spoken alot about great revivalists throughout time and how they always prayed "Give me Scotland or give me death," or "Bring revival or give me death." And so that saying has been on my heart alot lately for this vision that God has given me.

So God gives me this word and so I go up and share this word with the people. I prayed for God to raise up or annoint a generation of woman that could go into abortion clinics and give these woman a way out. I shared about the revivalists' prayers and how if we want this bad enough, we must pray this same prayer. GOD GIVE US THE CHILDREN OR GIVE US DEATH!!!!!!!!!! GIVE US LIBERTY OR GIVE US DEATH!!!!!!! GIVE US JUSTICE OR GIVE US DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!! After this one of the interns, Aniakin (he's niagrian), spoke of how the greatest battles are won by laying down your life. Such was Jesus' life. It was amazing.

What God did in me tonight was incredible. I know it wasn't me. I know it was God; it had to be. Have you ever had something burn so deeply in your heart that your whole body just trembles? I so feared getting up before the handful of people that were there, but I knew if I didn't do what He had told me to do, I wouldn't be submitting. So I did it. And God's spirit was upon me; it was almost like His hand was just holding on to me as if I were a puppet. I don't say that in pride or as though I am trying to boast. God used me tonight in a way that I have never been used before. This is what I am to do. This word that He gave me was not just a word for that specific moment but it was a word specifically for me. Except my heart cry is "GIVE ME THE CHURCH OR GIVE ME DEATH."

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Currently Reading The Twelve Transgressions: Avoiding Common Roadblocks on Your Journey to Christlikeness By Sergio Scataglini see related

Help me!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so stressed out right now. I have a test on Wednesday. I think I have a quiz in Dr. McElhany's class today. Yikes!!!!!!!!!!!! I have to read the Gospels and Acts and write notes on it by Wednesday--oh, wait, no; tomorrow! I also I have a huge group project due the day or two after Spring Break where only one person comes other than me, one person has to work the whole time, and the other two just don't care.  One thing that I don't understand is why people don't their homework. Is it just a guy thing or just a motivation thing? I am just a book nerd I guess. What can I say? Well, I better get to going to get all this homework done.

On the positive side, I get to talk to Daniel today. That always makes my day a little less stressful.

Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Daniel is coming home from Iraq in April, for two weeks. Yes! God has been working on him so much. I am sure I have said this before, but it's so awesome to see God at work in someone's life. He has become so humble, and God has softened his heart so much. He was great before, but now He is absolutely amazing! uoyevoli! I am so excited about his coming home.

Well, I worked all day long today driving obese and crippled people around. Hahaha. So just kidding. That is awful! No, it was so much fun. We all thought that it would really stink. So people even "volunteered" to not be a driver because they thought that it would be bad. Too bad for them that they had to run up and down 3 flights of stairs, while we sat on our butts and talked with awesome people who love the Lord. It was great. It was well worth the $65 that the school paid us.

Just wanted to write a little som'em' som'em' about my day.

Lots of homework so Peace!